What Christmas Means To Me Now…

My Christmas experience since becoming sober have by in large, been fantastic, but my first sober Christmas was by far the toughest. The whole family went for dinner at the local Golf club but I had only been sober for two months and the fog in my head was still very much clearing, my emotions…

What Christmas Meant To Me…

Christmas is a time for families and friends, but the majority of my Christmas’ have been full of shame. I’ve never really enjoyed Christmas because of my drinking and having to be around family for a prolonged period of time. I remember loving the Christmas madness of drinking all day and all night and feeling…

Pain Vs Hope…

Early on in recovery I found it very difficult to come to terms with the idea that I would never drink again. Looking back I couldn’t do anything without drinking, even something as simple as a game of Golf. Every Saturday I would tee off, 6.30am on the button – with a bottle of Rose…

Finding Hope Home And Away…

The recovery process at times can be one of the most unpleasant experiences life has to offer, but it is also one of the most amazing things that has ever happened to me – along with meeting my very patient wife of course. The people I have met along the way have become lifelong friends,…

“What Do You Mean You Don’t Drink?”

As I reminisce of Mrs W saying if she stayed with me she would never go on holiday with me again, I’m reminded of what a great deal I thought that was at that time – because at least she was going to stay. We have been together for 18 years and each and every…

Sometimes It’s The Littlest Things…

People often under-estimate the knock-on effects of alcoholism and by that I mean the psychological effects. People assume it’s all about getting that next drink or being permanently hungover, but it’s so much more. I was self-harming during this time. On one particular occasion I sliced my head open with a new Stanley blade. At…

Meet The Old Me…

I was born on the 27th May 1977 in Milngavie. I have drank alcoholically since I was 17. I left school at 16 and started an apprenticeship, I had called a family friend knowing he was a business owner and asked if he knew where I could find work. To my surprise he offered me…